Describe yourself from another's point of view.

i actually think about this a whole lot.

sometimes i think i'm totally messed up in the head and i wonder if other people notice.

seriously, i don't know how the people around me don't think i'm totally insane. i wear a tiger tail and ears in public. all the time. when i draw myself in a piece of art, i represent myself as a tiger. i'm a total introvert but i still talk a lot. i'm very loud. sometimes it seems like i can't shut up, but it's about stupid stuff that's not at all important and that is totally irrellevant. like pokemon or the jonas brothers or disney channel original movies or werewolves or what actors are in what movies, tv shows and commercials or specific details about episodes of tv shows not too many people have ever heard of or bands and musicians none of my friends know. i cry all the time. i'm almost crying right now, because of a song, actually. i cry at movies all the time. i'm madly in love with a girl who not only lives really far away but also doesn't love me back [at least not as much, i'm pretty sure] and i can't get over her no matter how hard i try and she's talking about how i must know she's going to date guys while she's in boise and i'm not. i'm totally heartbroken about all kinds of things. i cry whenever i see a dead animal. i can't stand being around my brother probably about half of the time. i don't let people touch my knees. i don't like the taste of lettuce or ketchup. i've never had a girlfriend and i've only ever kissed a girl once. i love anime. i'm a rollercoaster of emotions. a couple days ago i was incredibly sad, and yesterday i was happier than i am on most occasions, and today i was ecstatic for no apparent reason and right now i'm crying. i can't say anything important while my brother is around. my parents fight sometimes and if i ever try talking to them about what they're talking about i burst into tears and the words won't come out even though i plan these great things to say that'll make them both realise they have no reason to be fighting at all. i'm always comparing my life to every single song, movie and book i hear, watch or read. i never know what to do. i don't do things unless i know exactly what i'm doing.

anyways, i think there's something wrong with me and i don't know what it is, but it seems very complicated. and i don't think anyone ever notices. or maybe i'm just blind to their noticing, it's hard to tell.

most of my friends, as far as i can tell, see me as a fun, energetic guy who's always as nice as possible and strives to be the best friend he can be no matter what. i'm into indie films and i'm not afraid to speak my mind about the music i like. i'm somewhat of a hipster/emo kid.

i don't know. they seem to see me as a perfectly fine guy who's always fun to hang out with. they probably wouldn't say i'm normal, but they wouldn't say there's something wrong with me. they'd say i'm crazy, in the good, fun, happy way.

i don't know. maybe i'm thinking too much.