Is your mind a safe place to be?

hmmm. i think maybe my mind is often too safe of a place to be. i go there too often.

my friend asa is a very interesting fellow. he's good at ignoring pretty much everything around him and focusing on only the very specific things he wants to. then, he shares his thoughts about anything and everything and it can be hard to stop him sometimes. he's been described as always being alone, because it seems like when he's there, nothing else can matter very much.

but then in my case it's like i'm not there at all. he's alone regardless of who he's with, but i'm not there regardless of where i am. i just think about things and don't come out of my mind.

i wish my mind was a less safe to be, because i'm always retreating there when the world seems to harsh a place for me. i wish i could be there and actually do things and be places rather than just observe and think about what happens.

but i hardly even think about it. i don't really know how to explain it. pretty much what really happens is i think about the stuff i COULD be doing or the stuff i WOULD do in other situations. but i never so those things. i always just sit back. it definitely bugs me.